I haven’t been as present for this blog as I would like lately.
I could beat myself up over it, or feel like I’m betraying myself or the blog itself. I could berate myself for lack of consistency and not keeping track of the days. But in all honesty – why?
In the scheme of things, as much as I love writing this blog… sometimes life happens. Learning how to prioritize is an essential component of staying sane. Right now, there’s an immense amount of change in my life. I’ve moved to a new city and started a new job. I’m subletting and soon I have to find a longer-term living situation. There’s a lot going on.
The old me would’ve burnt myself out doing everything at once, thinking I had to rush to get where I’m going. I was driven by anxiety and worry most of the time. I lived in fight-or-flight. It wasn’t great.
But present-day me has learned from past experience. I’m now prioritizing what needs to happen first instead of trying to cram everything in ASAP. I am balancing all this change and energy consumption with rest and self-care. I am doing my best not to end up bitter and burnt out this time around. I want a more sustainable lifestyle. I’m giving myself a break on this one.
So, that being said, it’s very late and I need to get to bed. I have not forgotten or stopped caring about this little passion project. It’s simply not top of the list right now. And that’s okay.