I am the queen of trying to do it all. Sometimes I’m not sure if it’s because that’s what I really want, or because that way I always set myself up to fail. I don’t know if I am truly this multi-passionate, or if I’m just afraid to throw myself wholeheartedly into only one thing. Deep down I think it’s a bit of both.
I often attempt to achieve a number of goals that simply isn’t humanly possible, unless I never sleep. Setting the bar this high is actually counterproductive – it means I get so overwhelmed that I achieve much less than I probably could. Take this blog, for instance. I gave myself a break and decided to post twice a week instead of three times. Even so, I’ve fallen off of my regular schedule. There’s so much more that I want to do, and let’s be real. It’s not as if this is making me a dime. I do it because I enjoy it. On the other hand, if I’m always feeling pressured to keep up with it – not so enjoyable anymore.
I haven’t been great about posting regularly lately. There’s just so much going on in my life. I’m choosing to ignore all the “rules” around blogging and live in a way that works for me. The bottom line is that I deserve to be happy and feel at peace in my life. To that end, I’m giving myself some grace.
I hope that you enjoy what I write, regardless of whether it always comes when you expect. Maybe someday I’ll have enough financial security and stability in my life to make more time to write for fun. Maybe not. Either way, I’m allowing myself to be human. I encourage you to do the same.
Sending you love.